Frodo Effect

I have what my friend calls the Frodo Effect. It is the perfect description for how I feel. I just competed in the Theater on Ice National competition over the weekend. This was the culmination of a two year plan. It was amazing. But now I am in the post event let down phase. I have new goals and adventures planned but I just don’t want to leave this moment behind yet. I miss it already. 

It probably doesn’t help that I am super tired this week. Or that I have almost no motivation to do anything besides my have to dos. I have no fun projects at work. In fact, this week was all grunt work. I have no fun plans at home. The only real highlight was my DD coming home. But even that was bitter sweet as it just added to my schedule fun. 

It also doesn’t help that I just want to spend all of my time reliving the moment. I want to blog about why I started skating. I want to blog about my teammates and the fun we had. I want to blog about the event. I want to blog about how I realized over the weekend that we all struggle with something. I want to blog about becoming National Champs and being selected to skate in Spain!  I want to blog about all of this and I know I will soon!  

But for now, I am just getting through my Frodo moment. I understand his reaction at the end of the journey so much better now. The journey changes you. You can never be the person you were before the journey again. Adventure demands a price and it takes it. Your heart cannot be unchanged by that. 

I am so lucky though. My adventure gave me so much more than it ever took. Unlike Frodo, my journey let me finally see me at my best. I am proud of who and what I have become. I just need to rest and recoup so I can begin the next grand adventure.

I wonder what it will be…..